the musician (part 2)

SMILE. it's too easy for us. YOU MAKE ME HAPPY. we're just too happy. we're happy until we never really care about something. THE UNSPOKEN THING. now you realized. it's just like we creating moments without ever care. GOSH,look at you. YOU. i know you. i know youuuu. but this time i don't know it's you. grrrrrrr. WHY. why didn't you tell me. NOW you tell me. i never know it's you.....

the musician (part 1)

ia datang membawakanku sebuah gaun yang terbuat dari benang harapan dan khayalan, serta renda-renda kebahagiaan, sebuah gambaran sempurna tentang kehidupan yang menyenangkan.
" hi."
" hi."
" don't you see me? i brought you this dress."
aku termenung memandangi gaun itu. begitu indah. namun gaun itu pernah ia tawarkan dulu. aku tidak habis pikir mengapa ia kembali menawarkannya padaku. entah kenapa....tapi gaun itu terlihat jauh lebih indah dari sebelumnya. tapi ada yang berbeda. ada kancing keraguan yang sebelumnya dipasang di kedua lengannya, namun kancing itu sekarang hanya tinggal satu.
" why do you have to keep the other one? "
" because of you."
" why me? "
" you, there's a part of you that still confusing me. u never told me if you like the dress or not."

aku menyukai gaun itu.
" i'm so happy that you're here, brought me this dress."
" really? "
" yeah. but i still have the old one."
" yeah. i know. i made the other dress, for the other one."
" see. THAT'S OUR PROBLEM. "

A State of Mind

the world has taken me around, and now i'm arrived at a point when i'm not chasing or finding something for good. It's good already. good doesn't mean perfect, but it equals more than i expect.
the road was emptier at midnight as always, and on my way back home i realized that i turned to be a melancholic kinda girl who wants to change a perfect picture of future in a different line.
they asked me, " Are you happy? " HAPPY. yeah, i'm happy. but happiness is just a state of mind, after all. what kinda happy do you want to be? is it happy that makes you still can't stand to wipe the unreasonly invisible tears that sometimes coming out from the sky of your heart? all i want is to be happy, where happiness is not only a state of mind, but a beautiful invention that makes you out of your mind.

Konsentrasi

Here i am, sitting alone in a coffee shop.

Saya mencoba memusatkan konsentrasi saya pada tulisan saya,
sebuah novel yang berjudul Absurd Paradiso. Sesekali saya melirik kekanan dan kekiri, memperhatikan seorang wanita yang entah sepertinya sedang menunggu seseorang, karena ia tampak gelisah. Ia mencoba untuk membaca novel Harry Potter, namun sia-sia. Terbayang dalam benak saya bahwa sepertinya yang ia pikirkan hanyalah "Cepatlah datang, sayang".
Saya kembali memusatkan konsentrasi. Beberapa di meja tidak jauh dari saya pria tampak seru berbincang-bincang. I know, eavesdropping is impolite. Tetapi pembicaraan mereka seru sekali. Tidak lama untuk menyadari bahwa sepertinya mereka bukan pria yang straight. You know what i mean. Hahaha.
Saya kembali memusatkan konsentrasi untuk yang kesekian kalinya. Tiba-tiba datanglah seorang teman saya.
Hhhh.
Akhirnya saya memutuskan untuk menyudahi saja kegiatan menulis saya.

somehow, these song remind me of......

time - culture club
Ooh, in time.... It could have been so much more...The time is precious I know...
In time.....It could have been so much more......The time has nothing to show..

all i can do - club 8
be patient, try harder, i'll help you in my own way
see clearer, be happy......honey, it would be alright.......

la ritournelle - sebastien tellier
oh nothing's going to change my love for you,
I wanna spend my life with you......................
so we make love on the grass under the moon, no one call tell, damned if I do
forever journey on golden avenues, I drift in your eyes...
since I love you
I got that beat in my veins for only rule,
Love is to share................................. mine is for you................

there is a light that never goes out - the lucksmiths
And if a double-decker bus, crashes into us
To die by your side is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten-ton truck kills the both of us
To die by your side...well, the pleasure - the privilege is mine....

well, well............ they're remind me of you...